2 is the proof of math is wrong and love is no more exists.

The 2, as a number, as persons, as facts.

For me being 2 equals to, honesty,fidelity,the choice . to be or not be actually, a big contingency, the revealence of the dilemma.

You have to be honest when you are 2 persons. If you did something when you are two , the assurance of the other will reveal the fact that you are the source. So, impossible to lie, there is no space,room it mirrors you what you had done.

You have to be fidel. Because there is no other option. You can escape from the other until when you not exist anymore. Therefore , the other begins on that point. So your existence tied it.

It is the choice. Just being "to be" or "not to be". There are whites and blacks when the gray exist there is no more 2 colours.

So the other reflcets you , what you had done,the must of your existence is the other, but still you are not the other , so I can differantiate the other and you.

let's finish with number ,
for amount we are 2
but we can not be 1 and 1 or 5 and 5 because we are different.
on the other hand you reflects me what I had done, so reflecting is what you see o we have to be same , for example like 1 or 5.
1 + 1 = 1 + 2

Maybe this is the reason being only 2, as a fact or persons is so diff..impossible, love may be never exist, and this was just the illusion that we want to see.

06.12.2011

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No idea where the dream took place- the guy-theater-go,ng back home-family-aunties-kadıköy-berlin-telling lies-cough-holding my hands-my waist-leaving from parents-aunties- hearing some advice- going through Istanbul but it looks like a dock. maybe hamburg maybe izmir.

23.11.2011

Long time, long long time since I've written here..
I dont know whether my subconscious heard me or not but avoiding me for dreaming was really succesfull.
Due to being sick, since last week I am taki,ng some pills and my dreams are quite refreshing and happy-ended.
But last night I was raped, I was sleeping also in my dream and (in mydream again) I woke up I can figure out something was bad happened but I did not see/remember anything.I had been trying to be sure really I was raped or not and finding an answer to how can not I feel anything..

I woke up as same as in my dream, maybe 10 second passed am I stiil dreaming or not?
it was so bad. so bad.

That can work :)

According to research of Mannheim Uni, smelling good smells reduce to seeing nightmares ;) Maybe I should try ;) http://gundem.milliyet.com.tr/guzel-kokular-tatli-ruyalar/gundem/gundemdetay/14.08.2011/1426526/default.htm?ref=OtherNews

13.08.2011

In my dream,I was in metro in Berlin..It was the newest metro that I am in, but I do not remember whom I was with..
Suddenly between two station, I heard an announcement saying that " due to the high amount of carbondioxide in u-bahn, in the next station all passengers should leave the train as quickly as possible" I was shocked, this was the first time I heard such a thing .. The next station I went off from the train and I sat near bench, there was a policeman who informed us , you can leave the station on the stairs this part is cleaned by the cleaning-team , the other parts of station were still exposed to the high level of carbon dioxide.. Anyway, on the bench  there was a couple we started to talk..Later I saw that girls around 4-5 years old were playing hide-and-seek..Suddenly one of little girls with a blouse-yellow skirt, black hair(pony tail :) ) came to near me..On that moment I really want to snuggle her , she was just looking at me without talking .. Later the women of the couple started to talk Turkish and I learnt she was the sister of that little girl and their mom was the cleaning lady of that U-bahn station ??! I woke up :)

11.08.2011

This was shortest, naughtiest,dirtiest dream I had ever seen ! But the actor was afro-american everything was flawless.. ! happy waking :))

08.08.2011

I was travelling by a helicopter with one my friends from college (that boy I am travelling was not a very close but a funny guy) to the South America. But in my dream whole Chilie, Argentina were a part of ISTANBUL J and we were enjoying the view J But I knew that North America is still USA only Istanbul was enlarged ;) It was so peaceful seeing these countries above ..(Even now I can feel that feeling when I remember the dream) Anyway we landed somewhere in Central America and tried to go US.We were only saying “no, in US the houses are so nice, beautiful  but so expensive”..We were able to look houses from the boundry but not able to cross it L

This dream was like an episode of Cold Case, CSI:NY .. I saw myself at highschool but this one was a private one.It was a boarding school and only for girls ( By the way I always wanted to go a boarding high school in Istanbul which are usually foreign-language based and French ones were my favorite ) .Back to the dream , the girls ,we, were organizing a party at night but not a pajamas party a real one only between girls only there was a gnome who helped us ..We used so much balloons for the poarty but later in a room in which me and my best friend(the girls on my dream I have never seen them on real life) entered and see the dead body of that gnome..We tried to solve the murder but no way just rumors and panic..